She felt like the moment she seems to decided silence, there was a battle going on in her mind, trying to convince that silence was never an answer. At times the words need to be out and left to be heard by others, else the conflicting words in the heart will remain there in total chaos. Silence kills her thoughts which are the catalysts of her emotions. The thought makes what she is now – convinced, confirmed and dedicated.
She silenced her decisions once she was determined to achieve.
She silenced her dreams, as it cannot be achieved.
She silenced her heart, as it was broken many times.
She silenced her feet, responsibilities, not to disturb other’s sleep.
She silenced herself to avoid being self-pitied.
At times the silence killed her soul, she was never what she wanted to be.
Overshadowed by the decisions of, fiddling in responsibilities, flying like new born bird who is trying to reach a branch while its initial flight.
Scared, lost, confused and hurt.
Yet she found the freedom of speech, a way to propagate her thoughts to reach the thousands who felt like her. Even though her lips never spoke, her voice was never head, her fingers moved and her words flew out into the blank pages.
She found the way to say and not to say. She was never silenced in her thoughts. Her thoughts were free and all she did was enjoyed the new found freedom of expression. To express or not to express was a choice, and to read and not to be read was another choice which she fought on her own.