Silence ….is the reason for my survival

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You were the reason I lived

I knew what loneliness meant when you were away from me

You ignited my soul

You became the motive of my mere existence

You embellished my enlightenment

I felt the emptiness in me when the expectations died down

I could wait for you for infinite time

if you could promise me the life I yearned

It was the need for you that fueled my whole being

the void did not vanish unless you remained with me

even when I loved the depth of the  black

I felt suffocated in the darkness

I never thought that being away from you was a torture 

until I realized that I cannot hold you in my arms as i wished

I felt like the whole world wanted to take away my happiness for a second

Every second away from you became hours of pain

Insanity has caught my mind, that even a second, thinking of not being with you was killing me

I wished to cry out, but the shackles in my heart would never let me cry

I silenced the pain in the darkness comforting my soul

convincing that you can never be away from me

even if I knew the truth…..my blind heart

couldn’t live the pain…

this pain I could outlive, with a promise that you are with me

I slept holding on to my pillow, throwing away all the consumed thought about you being by my side

silently swimming through my tears into a deep sleep

With the longing that I would see you as I open my eyes

The tears were my strength to withstand the time away from you …

Silence was the power that let me survive all along…

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